【Our Parents】

Whose the one will give you anything without any returns..?

Whose the one will give you their LOVE no matter how was you..?

【Our Parents】

Today I receive a msg from my sis

She tells me that my mum had bank in the money for me

But it's 4.2k

My fee is rm4250

4.2k actually is not enough to pay it

But my sis told me that mum said she had gave me all the money she had

People look at me

They feel that I have a great life without worrying bout anything

But they never know

I feel so sad on what my sis told me

As a child

I cant gave anything to my parent

But I had make my parent to give me their everything

It's really make me feel so sad and stress

I'm not a good student

and not even a good daughter

But my parent are willing to gave me their everything

I shouldn't be that one to receive all of this

Because I think myself is not worth for you all to give me so much things

Dear say

Why you everyday also talking bout money

Actually I didn't

But now I feel I should

Money change a lot in my life

especially in my family

and it let me look through people heart

I don't wish myself to worrying bout money everyday

But now

I must force myself to think about it everyday

How tired was that but I got no choice

Life had force me

Our first-3G

Yesterday when I went to class..

Suddenly I have a video call..

And it's from you..

We just make a video call through msn once before..

Since we get together with each other such a long time..

And yesterday is our 1st 3G call through mobile..

You never know how happy am I get to see you..

But I need to attend class and you need to work..

so I just get to see u just for that 10sec I think..

Just now..

We make a 3G call again..

and you lured me with your dinner-KFC..

>.<

3G call really make me miss you more than the normal..

When I see you..

I feel wanna go home..

I wanna get to your side..

Which the place you will be..

But..I cant..

Mid term is coming around on every Saturday..

I cant make myself to go home..

So depressed for it..

T_T

Looking at you..

My tears shed without your knowing..

It's not a tear of happiness..

But it's a tear of my miss..

I really miss you badly my dear..

I wish to go home..

我们。已经是彼此生活上的一部分了

我等了一整天

你终于拨电话给我了

可是今天你不是告诉我说

你放工啦。还是到家啦。又或者是跟朋友去喝酒啊

你说

你要跟他们一起去看戏

看戏本来就是已经很普通的事对吧

可是

我突然有种很奇怪的感觉

这感觉不像平时你说跟朋友们去喝酒的感觉

那种感觉

就像失去了安全感一样。心里会很不安

或许是因为

我们在一起的时间久了

大多数去看电影。我们都会是一起去的

可是现在

你不是跟我去看

就像是原本一直属于你的东西

现在却被人夺走了

心里

很不安。很不安

亲爱的

我终于明白为什么之前我自己跟朋友去看戏

你会念我念那么久了

今天。我自己感受到了那种感觉

【好不安的感觉】

就像是你可以没有我也没关系的感觉

真的很不好受

T_T

我不希望我是自私兼野蛮的女友

我不会不让你去

可是我会让我自己把现在的心情让你知道

原来我们已经在彼此的生活上

占有一定的位置了

没了它

我们都会觉得失去了某些东西一样

很没有安全感

可能你没那么想过

但你一直碎碎念。“怀恨在心”

就证明了。你也是很在意这件事的

对吧? 嘻嘻

2011的情人节

我瞒着你

悄悄的回槟城去了

我说了一天的骗话

忍的好辛苦呐

=P

结果。你看到我的第一句话就是

“唷。做么你跑回来。我要跟其他空头出去的嘛。”

哈哈哈

换作是其他女生

她们一定给你逼疯的

可是我没有叻

因为这就是我们沟通的方式

嘻嘻

我的美丽的情人节

就跟你的一班朋友们在fuel里面度过

幸亏隔一天晚上

你还会在家陪我看MEGAMIND

不然

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

我买了孔明灯

可是却都没机会点它

hmm

2011年的情人节我们就这样度过啦

当我回到金宝的时候

看见很多人的情人节都过得很好

看见他们那么的浪漫

我觉得很不错

可是却没有羡慕的感觉呐

我也不会觉得我的情人节过得很不好

你为了工作

每一天从早忙到晚

到今天都没有休息过一天

我回去你会陪我

我觉得已经很不错了啊

换作是平时啊

叫你留在家陪我可能会有点难咯

xD

谢谢你给了我最好的情人节礼物

【你还在我身边】

还有你欠我的“大便”

哈哈

我没礼物给你

你应该也不会介意的啦

哈哈

不要问为什么

就是没有

嘻嘻

。炸弹又响起了警钟。

本以为快解开的炸弹，现在又再想起了警钟

我已经不知道该怎样把它解开了

该做的，我都已经做了

可是马来西亚的政府机构“很忙”

他们需要“一些”时间来处理我的问题

刚刚我真的很生气

气到头都很痛

可是现在

我已经不知道要气什么了

要气都只能气自己之前填错资料才会造成现在的烦恼

我不懂如何告诉我妈

可是不告诉她

我自己也无力解决

好烦～ @.@"

突然

想起一位“小妹妹”说过我的一段话

我说过我会记得她写给我的话

她说

钱。每个人都需要

是你（就是说我）处于读书时期的需求

只寻求

-幸福

-开心

-朋友

-娱乐

-等等

我在想，如果我真的可以想她讲的那样

不需要为钱烦恼，过着那么轻松无虑的生活

那该有多好啊～

可是现在

我却因为钱无助到我想放弃我的学业

我成绩不算好

又不算一个很好的学生

我不明白为什么要那么辛苦的读书

花了父母的那么多钱

谁可以保证以后我一定会过得比人家好呢？

我知道这样想是很不对

可是真的好累

我相信跟我遇到同样问题的人

都会这么的想过吧

【TROUBLE】came to me again

and I'm going to lost my way to fixed it

It's making feel so tired and helpless

The day before 2011 CNY

Today already is the day before 2011's Chinese New Year..

But..I don't feel happy at all..

There's something between us..

But..I couldn't find out what is it..

I tried to ask..

But..Your answer is call me to find out myself..

I got no idea what i had done..

But..I can't do anythings also except be quiet..

This feeling came to me about 2 weeks already..

I don't know how long I still can stand for it..But I know I'm so suffer for it..

I need you..

I need you to be with me..

I need you to completed me..

I need you to give me your love..

All I want is just YOU..

I'm a greedy person..

I don't want anything just YOU..

But now..

I had let you hate me..

I had let you go away from me..

I had let you feel I'm so annoying..

I had let you so stressful because of me..

Goh Yong Chuan

I need you..

Please don't leave me alone..

Will you back to me..?

I Love You

Anyway..CNY is coming..

Wish everybody Happy Chinese New Year~!!!

Wish everyone n also myself get better in 2011..